nasty tuesday

since last weekend sf has been sooo nasty... cold, gloomy, windy and now, raining... forget about trying to look good at all... you'll just end up soaking wet and your hair will stand up like medusa... i don't think anybody will care or pay attention anymore if you just wear PJ to work with your hair all standing up... hhh why do we have to work? this kinda weather is just so perfect to be in bed w/ hot cocoa and read a book... :( this morning i had to drag myself to get up... my brain told me to work, but my ass refused to move...


%&$@!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's it!!!! i really don't like meter maids AT ALL!!! who does??? and amazingly people still wanna work as meter maid... don't they ever think that sooooo many people wanna choke 'em to death? arggggggggghhhhhhhhh... so pissed off!!!!


got out from work, i did some serious grocery after a longgg time... and it felt really good! this time i can stock my apartment with everything i need without worrying any of my stuff will disappear like what happened before... even though i like having roommates, but after the last experiences i have... i think i prefer living by myself now... i'm so sure that i DO NOT wanna have anybody suddenly poke their head in from my window when i already locked my door. well i guess, some people have never been thought of the words 'manner' and 'privacy' by their mother... and apparently there're plenty of 'em out there....

in the past few days, people have been talking about this really sick girl who depends on some feeding machine to stay alive... i don't really follow the whole story, but people start debating if the machine needs to be pulled off or not.... 'cuz she'll slowly die if machine's down... hmm.. interesting... how people nowadays can decide the life/death of someone... are they trying to be God? or they think they're God?


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"it's not a lack of love, but a lack of friendship that makes unhappy marriages" ~Friedrich Nietzsche

so,
what is love exactly? how do you know that you're in love? how can you tell if it's love not just infatuation?