soon...

so pardon me... this is still a new toy for me... that's why i feel like writing a lot.. just wait 'til my laziness kicks in... :D

tonite, i'm watching a show on tv called 'super nanny'... my goodness, i just know that i'm soooo grateful for not having kids right now. seeing those kids running around, kicking, punching, screaming, crying, throwing stuff, etc etc really drives me to the top... literally i feel like going to those kids and just hang them. God, why do i have the feeling that IF i have kids someday, they'll be like that??? i guess since i know that i'm such a rebel? :) 'n my kids will be 3 times worse than me?? OH SHIT!! NOOOO!!!!

are marriage and having kids the ultimate achievement in life? how can you call it achievement if having kids, especially, only giving you headaches, turning your hair like barbara bush and making you look OLD a whole lot faster, PLUS you don't even have time for yourself anymore??


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when we want to reach the star high above so badly... how far should we push ourselves? i know climbing up is harder than sliding down, but apparently it's way harder than i can imagine. i look down sometimes to see how far up i've been, and darn how scared shitless i am to fall... i know that i'll always have the support of my life; they will always be there for me no matter what.. i can't even have a word to say how grateful i am... it's just that i really wanna go up there to release all the burdens i've already caused. it is already my time to spoil and take care of 'em... besides i really want to take a rest a little bit and enjoy the view...

it'll happen soon... very very soon...