finding myself..

"the judgment of others does not change who i am. quite the opposite is true. it reveals who they are. those who deem me unworthy at a glance and pass me by, have my blessing to keep walking, for they have a long way to go. they have not reached the point where they are able to see and appreciate me for who i am."
~Terri McPherson

i never thought of jotting down 100 things about myself. so, when i see people do that, i think 'oh my.. 100??? hmm' but lemme give it a try...

after doing lotta research, these are what i found:

1. i love travelling
2. clean, smell good and organized, yes... doing laundry, houseworks, hate it
3. sooo grateful for not having any wrinkles now
4. i met and lived with a con-artist
5. i hate packing 'n moving, yet i keep moving from 1 apt to another, from 1 state to another
6. i'm not a big fan of chocolate... or anything too sweet
7. one of my middle name means flower, but i'm not crazy with flower at all
8. i changed my major twice
9. I LOVE NEW YORK
10. i love dancing, clubbing 'n anything that involves w/ dancing 'n music

11. my bestfriends are all over the world now
12. almost 1/2 of my life, i live by myself...
13. i never smoke... ANY kind of smoke :D or any kinda illegal drugs
14. almost had 'brownies'... but i left it in the fridge, forgot about it, my roommate threw it away :D
15. i only got drunk twice... the rest was only tipsy
16. i enjoy being around men more than women, but all my bestfriends are women
17. only once in my life i kicked out someone who lived with me
18. i love cooking, but i'm not good at baking at all
19. i keep wishing to have a maid someday
20. i love different type of music... anything that pleases my ears

21. from 5 colors in the olympic flag, only red that i haven't gotten a chance to explore... ;)
22. most occassion i prefer variety
23. i think too much
24. i don't mind beer, but i prefer mixed drinks better
25. sometimes i can see/feel things before happening
26. many times i say whatever in my brain without thinking
27. living in NYC for 3 full months this past summer is definitely 1 hell of experience
28. i love dogs... and HATE HATE HATE cats
29. i pretended to like cats... and the owner never knew how much i wanted to kill that cat
30. i love fine things in life, but try to stay grounded

31. i'm a big time procrastinator
32. 'n i'm trying to change...
33. i can get bored 'n distracted easily
34. but when i'm really focus on something, no one/nothing can stop me
35. i've driven my car for almost 11 years.. with all the parking tickets i got, i can buy the latest brand new G5 + latest brand new Mac laptop
36. that's why i HATE metermaids
37. i speed when i feel sleepy/bored while driving... and only have 2 speeding tix ;)
38. turn off: a guy who's smelly, way into himself, too talkative, doesn't know what he wants.. among other things :)
39. i love trying different type of foods
40. a BIG TIME seafood lover

41. i don't like gym at all... 'n i have my solid reasons... so, i prefer any kind of activities outside the gym
42. i love movies... and don't mind watching them by myself
43. but i hate horrors... i don't see the point of spending $$ and get scared
44. plus i think many horror movies are stupid. only few are good
45. sometimes i sneak in to the 2nd or 3rd theater
46. i'm a very affectionate gal
47. people back home always say i'm fat 'cuz of the hips, butts and boobs i have
48. but i don't give a shit anymore. screw 'em all. in fact, i'm so grateful to have those now.
49. i agree that size really does matter
50. and theory without practice ain't work

**geez.. still 1/2 way..**

51. i had all my wisdom teeth pulled out all at once
52. everyday i'm trying to accept 'n understand people the way they are, but many of them are testing my patience
53. i dream high... and will make them come true soon
54. i'm a big city girl. i know it, can't deny it and am proud of it.
55. how i know? 'cuz i used to live in a little town in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by farms, and smelled like pig's poop at nite
56. i learnt italian long time ago... 'n forget most of 'em
57. that's why i really want to live in italy so bad... even though just for 1 year so i can speak the language fluently
58. somehow i slowly turn to be a vegan.
59. i still can eat meat as long as i don't smell the aroma of the meat. even that, i prefer no meat at all most of the time
60. no matter how long i've lived in this country, i still don't like baseball even though i've tried to watch and understand it. i even tried to play for the company i used to work for long time ago.

61. i always thank my very good friend, mary, for teaching me all the necessary cuss words i needed to know back then. love you, girl...
62. i went to the carribean carnival in NYC this past labor day... and wow!!! good food and definitely very very interesting and sexual crowd... ha ha ha... they do know how to move their hips...
63. and i was the only girl who was 'different' among them... 'n i didn't fucking care
64. i've been thinking to take belly dancing class... and i will, soon
65. my mom thinks my life is like an indian soap opera and always worries her
65. the longest relationship i had was 5 years and thank God it ended
66. 'cuz my life fully flourished right after that
67. my family is everything for me
68. do not dare me... 90% chance i'll do it.
69. i'm living in the nicest apartment i've ever lived in... considering it's in SF... for such a bargain
70. i had, have and will have a chance to work with very very good companies... grateful for that

71. i used to have 2 PS2s... but i don't play any games, only use 1 of them to watch dvd
72. i tried to play, but i'm not good at it at all... i get bored so fast
73. i hate people telling me what to do
74. i hate liars and hypocrites
75. i'm way too hard on myself
76. i love clothes, shoes, electronics and high tech gadgets
77. but i'm too broke to buy everything i like
78. my siblings are extremely smart... and i adore both of 'em
79. i've been away from home for too long...
80. i don't even understand the slangs and some words people use back home anymore

81. i heard more horror stories about marriage than the good ones... and those are from the people i'm very close to
82. i mean 99.999999% i said... no matter if it's about good or bad thing
83. i love Bali... the place, the culture, the scenery, the tradition... everything about it.
84. i still amaze how some people in this country take the privileges they have for granted.. some don't know about it or don't even do anything about it... they only complain, complain and complain...
85. i used to be the photographer of my bestfriends back in the day... turned our dorm room to be the studio with white bed spread everywhere and whatever lightings we had
86. and we took so many crazy pictures... including the one that they all were begging me to destroy and swear not to show it to a soul...
87. susan, one of my bestfriends, cut my hair and my other bestfriend's hair... it turned up 'ohhhh SHIT!!!!!! aaaaaaaarrrgggghhhhh'...
88. i'm a good listener... i think... he he he...
89. i had 1 surgery... and miracle happened
90. i experience miracles in my life... and i'm always flabbergasted

91. i never know it's so darn hard to write 100 things about myself
92. i love good laughs and being around people who can make me laugh
93. i used to dress sloppy... not anymore, well, at least i try not to
94. i can't drink too much coffee
95. i almost took bartending class
96. i found fabio or those body builders gross... ewww...
97. i love victoria's secret
98. members of my extended family are speaking different dialects 'n languages and from different parts of the country, different beliefs, different cultures, and different diciplines. i'm SO SO proud of it.
99. one day... long time ago... someone hated me for my background. i thank God, i never see her face anymore.
100. i am who i am... i'm happy and grateful to be where and what i am right now. i'm far from perfect or great, but am working towards to be one, esp. for people i love the most.

** finally **
this thing is really taking forever...
i'm out now... sick of it...