i love you... i love you not

i gotta admit... that it's always easier to find one's flaws and mistakes and hate the person in order to detach yourself emotionally... 'cuz by hating that person, we create all the reasons in our mind to smooth things out... no matter how much you used to like or love that person...

i tried to...

yes, i do find flaws... yes, i do find things that annoy me so much

but no matter how obvious the flaws and mistakes are, i just can't bring myself to hate the person. some people called me weird because of that. i can always respond 'yea, i hate that person now' but i can't lie to myself and my own heart that i do NOT hate the person. i mean, yes, shit happens. but it's not the end of the world.

i might hate what they did... but i do not hate the person. people make mistakes. nobody can get away from making an ass of themselves... sometimes they do/say what they do/say because they have their own reasons we dunno.

call me stupid... i don't care 'cuz i know that i am far from perfect. i make so many mistakes that i just can't forgive myself. plus, i believe in karma... how can someone forgive my mistakes if i never forgive anybody?