never eat alone
think & grow rich
who are you?
"what do you wanna be when you grow up?" is the question people asked when we were young... but did you really know what you wanted to be? what if you were asked again. "what do you wanna be?" or "are you the person you wanted to be?"
how do you define yourself? do you really know who you are despite of the title people give you or what people say about you?
all my life i have been searching. growing up in the culture and in the family where everything seems already defined for you.. you have to do this, you're not allowed to do that. this is wrong, that is not ladylike, this is not according to eastern culture, so on and so forth. from people around me i have noticed, people start talking behind your back or in front of you nicely or even sarcastically, if you don't do what 'society' expects you to do. some parents start saying that you disrespect them if you only speak your mind and tell them the truth... and mind you, you ARE speaking to them in a very respectful way. always making sure that i achieve the standard being set for me, i have always thought that this is what i'm supposed to be... altho it seems the bar is getting higher and higher despite of what i've accomplished in my life. i don't say that it's completely bad to follow (or obey) 'cuz it helps you to stay in track, building your foundation. however, at the same time it also can make people lose themselves...
almost all my life i had been lost. only in the last couple years, with the help from my dearest and beautiful people in my life... after living in a such crazy life, in 1 of the craziest cities in the world 'n meeting so many interesting people, i start to know who i am and what i really want.
i am still kinda lost... kinda is the word. but not as lost as i used to be. mistakes after mistakes i have made... and i'm paying my dues for some mistakes i made. it's totally ok for making mistakes 'cuz i'll learn from it, but it hurts really bad when the mistakes i made affected the most beautiful thing ever happened to me. let go, let God, 1 of my best friends said to me... and as hard as it is, i am trying. deep down i really really want to pick someone to blame, but then what's the point. those people will always be who they are. they'll never change. i can only change myself.
so, this is me... and all me. altho it'll be a giant step for me, but 'that' is what i want. let go, let God. if it's meant to be, then it'll be. i have no regret whatsoever as the intention has always been pure and straight from the heart. only very recently, after knowing who and what i really am, i realized that i could've chosen a different route to deliver it.
...
with all the chaos and hectic schedule as part of our life
with Manhattan, Central Park and Flushing Meadow Park as the background
with Coney Island and subway as the playground
with Russell Peters, Altar Boyz, Jump, and many others tickling the tummy
with friends and family warming the hearts
my book of life is filled with so many bright colors... the brightest colors a girl can ask for
nothing else i ask
only thank you i can express
how do you define yourself? do you really know who you are despite of the title people give you or what people say about you?
all my life i have been searching. growing up in the culture and in the family where everything seems already defined for you.. you have to do this, you're not allowed to do that. this is wrong, that is not ladylike, this is not according to eastern culture, so on and so forth. from people around me i have noticed, people start talking behind your back or in front of you nicely or even sarcastically, if you don't do what 'society' expects you to do. some parents start saying that you disrespect them if you only speak your mind and tell them the truth... and mind you, you ARE speaking to them in a very respectful way. always making sure that i achieve the standard being set for me, i have always thought that this is what i'm supposed to be... altho it seems the bar is getting higher and higher despite of what i've accomplished in my life. i don't say that it's completely bad to follow (or obey) 'cuz it helps you to stay in track, building your foundation. however, at the same time it also can make people lose themselves...
almost all my life i had been lost. only in the last couple years, with the help from my dearest and beautiful people in my life... after living in a such crazy life, in 1 of the craziest cities in the world 'n meeting so many interesting people, i start to know who i am and what i really want.
i am still kinda lost... kinda is the word. but not as lost as i used to be. mistakes after mistakes i have made... and i'm paying my dues for some mistakes i made. it's totally ok for making mistakes 'cuz i'll learn from it, but it hurts really bad when the mistakes i made affected the most beautiful thing ever happened to me. let go, let God, 1 of my best friends said to me... and as hard as it is, i am trying. deep down i really really want to pick someone to blame, but then what's the point. those people will always be who they are. they'll never change. i can only change myself.
so, this is me... and all me. altho it'll be a giant step for me, but 'that' is what i want. let go, let God. if it's meant to be, then it'll be. i have no regret whatsoever as the intention has always been pure and straight from the heart. only very recently, after knowing who and what i really am, i realized that i could've chosen a different route to deliver it.
...
with all the chaos and hectic schedule as part of our life
with Manhattan, Central Park and Flushing Meadow Park as the background
with Coney Island and subway as the playground
with Russell Peters, Altar Boyz, Jump, and many others tickling the tummy
with friends and family warming the hearts
my book of life is filled with so many bright colors... the brightest colors a girl can ask for
nothing else i ask
only thank you i can express